Thursday, June 30, 2011

Update: New Design

a heart tattoo with the pillowbrand name. been wanting to do this for some time and finally got it down onto paper. Has two images.. the white shirt has the black lines and the colored dark shirts have the white lines ...

its my biker tattoo heehehhee.. check it out in the STORE.. thanks for the support..

Thought of the day: My little buddy is growing up too fast.. love you Noah Jacob

Monday, June 27, 2011

New Design for the 4th

in honor of the independence of our great land..the eagle.. has symbolized our nation for many years. To our independence!!!

check it out in the store. Thank you for the support.

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just thought i'd post something today...

Why am i trying so hard to please everybody .. why do i feel the need for people to look at me lately?.. I used to not care what people think of me.. how they perceived me but now it seems like i actually do care..

i need to stop caring again.. stop listening to people(problem for me since i am an observer and i listen to things)... just need to do it...

thought of the day: howcome when i do things for people... they give me a hard time when i ask them to do something

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Update: New Design


For many people that know me personally.. i have battled the battle of the bulge for most of my lifetime. I have gone through 34 years of my life being laughed at or made fun of because of my size and weight. Not just by strangers, also family. Now they have said they don't mean anything by it and am pretty easy going guy myself so it never really got to me but you can only take so much after awhile.

I remember a situation as a child, having a mother on public transportation tell her child that if he doesn't stop misbehaving that someone would eat him and she pointed at me. I was only 6 at that point. Or another situation where my mom thinks that by calling me fat, that i would jump and start losing weight right away. I was told i wasn't going to get a job because i was fat. Really?...so i had enough. i started to starve myself. It started when i was turned down by woman and when i was walking home a child called me fat. so i starved myself to the point that i lost 100 pounds in 6 months and the world looked at me differently. But when i gained the weight back i doubled my size and people again looked at me in a different way.

So i do believe in this cause about fat-cism. It seems that people who hate being judge for their skin can easily be as judgemental to people that are bigger in size. Why? is it because you yourselves are not happy with who you are so you would make fun of people to make yourself better? Why are so many people so image conscious? You know Big guys like me are the same as the thin people. We just tend to eat more. so please end your prejudices against fat people. We treat you guys with respect, please do the same for us.

the new shirt in the store!! check it out..

Thought of the day: Why does the world have to revolve around image?

Saturday, June 11, 2011

New Design

been on a design kick.. new design is the Chinese Lion Mask with the chinese character of power. This is probably the last i will be doing for awhile.. it just came to me this weekend hopefully it won't be the last hehehe..

Hopefully I won't be away from the drawing stuff for far too long again.. but i think i just wasted my last ounce of art stuff for the month ahahhaha.. ah well.. just please check out the store and support by just advertising it around.. thanks again..

Thought of the day: as i grow older i just find that life isn't as bad as i make it to be...

Update: New Design



After being burnt out for the last month and a half i finally got a design done yesterday. a classic line from my childhood. See if you all can remember hehehehe

Still looking into closing down the shop. People have been telling me not to give up but just the lack of inspiration and the lack of ideas are not really helping me keep my hope up. Along with looking at other artists stuff and it just makes me want to drop my pencil and mouse with the great stuff i've seen out there.. And sales isn't going up either and that doesn't help.

But there is a little something in me thats not making me close it yet.. who knows.. i just need to start it up again and eventually get my store out of cafepress.. and just own it.. but first i need a job to to do that.. ah well.. we'll see..

Thought of Day: is the world getting just little bit angrier?